I have a confession.

I purchased the book “May Cause Miracles” by Gabby Bernstein recently because well, I love her and I’m all about personal development. This book has a 40 day challenge and initially, I was so excited to dive right in and kick butt to feel brand new after 40 days. I’ve loved everything else I’ve read and listened to by this author. However, I couldn’t get further than Day One.

Day One requires you to acknowledge your fears. It’s about recognizing your fear based patterns and letting those feelings come. It prompts you to write down what triggers different fears throughout the day and in the evening, you reflect by answering some simple but at the same time difficult, questions.

I just couldn’t do it. As someone with anxiety, many things trigger different fears, both rational and irrational. I just didn’t feel brave enough to face them head on. To be totally honest, I’ve been trying to run from them. But, I know in my heart I need to feel these feelings in order to let them go. I need to figure out my triggers, where they come from and how to move on. I put the book down on my desk at home and everyday I say to myself “I’ll start next week”. (Gabby recommends starting the 40 day challenge on a Monday) I know, lame excuse.

I’m going to pray for the courage to take on this challenge. In order for me to learn, grow and overcome anxiety/depression – I have to do this. I know it’s important to be gentle with yourself but I think right now, I need to push myself outside of my comfort zone. I need to find the light within me that’s still hidden by darkness.

One day at a time! 🙏🏼🌻✨

4 thoughts on “Confession

  1. Perhaps instead of days, you’d do better to think of it as 40 steps. Step one seems like it might be too complicated for you to complete it properly in just one day, and that’s ok. Give yourself permission to move slowly and take the time you need, but not to run away. You absolutely CAN face this. Just maybe not all at once. 🙂

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